Dear Hadley,
Today you turn five months old. To celebrate the occasion (and the unseasonably sunny weather) I packed up you and your sister and we spent the morning at the Wooden Shoe Tulip Festival in Woodburn. I had an amazing time walking around admiring the stunning rows of my favorite flowers, basking in the warm sun, and enjoying the company of my precious daughters.

While you have always been a pretty happy and content baby, the fact that you can now entertain yourself with toys has made you even happier and more content. We are able to actual get things accomplished while you stare contently at the faces of your toys or chew happily on whatever unsuspecting toy got within your ever expanding reach, occasionally lifting the item to your mouth and coating it entirely in drool.

Speaking of drool, you are constantly covered in it. I do my best to wipe you off, but before I have even had a chance to set down the cloth I dry you with, I look over at you and you stare back at me with a huge drooly smile. Now how am I suppose to be annoyed about the drool when it makes you so happy? So I almost never get to set down the drool cloth anymore. Not being a fan of drooly, messy, or sticky children (your older sister will surely attest to this) I do my best to keep you looking presentable. Besides, who wants to nibble on a soggy baby? And you know how I love to nibble.

But in the grand scheme of things, I have to admit, the drool is FAR better than the puke. You use to be a projectile vomiting queen, but (and I finally feel safe admitting this) it’s been well over a month (maybe even two!) since you have thrown up. I have never been so happy to have a baby outgrow a phase of life. I think your digestive system finally matured enough that you are now able to keep all the food I feed you down. All the better to fatten you up, if you ask me. How else would you stay in the 97th percentile for height and weight and keep up those adorable rolls on your knees. I didn’t even know babies could have rolls on their knees, but you do. And they are simply irresistible.

While your digestion has improved, I’m sorry to say your sleep habits have not. I was really excited about those long stretches of sleep you teased us with, but those seem like a distant memory now. The last week or so (it’s so hard to judge time when you are sleep deprived) you have been getting up about every two hours. All. Night. Long. It’s not your fault. We’ve all been sick and between not being able to breathe properly and spontaneous coughing fits, you’ve had the hardest time sleeping. Not to mention the teething your pediatrician assures me you are experiencing. I know that can’t be fun. So all in all, you’ve been a hot mess when it comes to sleeping. But thankfully you aren’t up for long when you wake in the night, so I am able to quickly comfort you and feed you, then your Daddy wraps you up and rocks you to sleep. Then your father and I crawl back into our bed, asleep before our head even hits the pillow, knowing that in two hours we get to do it all over again.

In this family, we aren’t very good at just sitting around. We like to get out and enjoy all the lovely things Portland has to offer. One of those thing we did recently was the Shamrock Run and it was your very first race. Sure, you rode in the stroller for most of it, but you were there! The best thing about the Shamrock Run is the amazing energy of the race. Everyone is happy, dressed in silly St. Patrick’s Day attire and they don’t even mind the cold, the rain, or that fact that it was day lights savings time and we lost an hour of sleep. It was a lot of fun and hopefully we will be able to make it a family tradition.

While occasionally having two children can be complicated (like helping a preschooler go to the bathroom in a port-a-potty with a baby strapped to your chest) there are times when having a second child is significantly easier. Ana loves to help me with anything and everything that involves you. She doesn’t even mind throwing away your dirty diapers. But she simply loves entertaining you. Whether that be dancing around the room to elicit your precious giggles, serenading you with a song she made up herself, or reading you her favorite book, Ana is happy to step up. Don’t think you are missing anything by having Ana do these things instead of me. She is a much better performer and you clearly prefer her talents to my own. Just to toss out a few more clichés, you have eyes only for her and she thinks you are the bee’s knees.

The other day us girls were walking through the mall and I casually mentioned (mostly as a warning to Ana who is not a fan of “fluffy” creatures) that the Easter Bunny might be at the mall. Instead of growing suspicious and leery, Ana was very eager to take you to meet the Easter Bunny. We originally planned to just walk up and say hello, but both you girls were very happy to see the giant fluffy animal, so we just had to get the picture as well. As you can see, you clearly don’t have a problem with the Fluffies. Yet.

Of all the fun things we do on a daily basis, my favorite thing is walking into your room first thing in the morning, when you have just started to wake up and are babbling to yourself. I love peering over the top of your crib and in that one moment when our eyes meet, a smile–the most beautiful and pure smile I have ever seen–takes over your face and I know you are happy to see me. Just when I thought my love for you couldn’t get any bigger, I wake up and discover that I love you even more.

All my love,
Mama

P.S. I totally almost forgot to mention that you rolled over this month! On March 17th you rolled over for the very first time. You were clearly less than impressed because you waiting until today to do it again. And that’s just fine with me. I think mobility is totally over rated anyway. Can’t you just stay a baby forever?

Dear Hadley,
Today you turn four months old. So many things have happened this month, it seems like you are growing up in leaps and bounds. You have such a defined personality and an array of facial expressions that rival most adults. I’m always trying to guess what you are thinking based on your face and often catch myself imagining the conversations we will have just as soon as you have the ability to vocalize your thoughts with more than just squeaks, squawks, and grunts.

If last month was all about you trying to get your hands to your mouth, this month is all about you chewing on those hands. You have a really unique way of chewing on your hands too: you stick out your thumb and forefinger in opposite directions and bite down. Almost like a tiny little bite guard. And with all that chewing comes lots of drool. Your hands are constantly wet, as is much of your shirt. People keep asking me if you are teething and while I don’t see anything, I’m not taking it off the table just yet. I mean, there is a LOT of chewing and drool.

You have also started playing with toys this month. This delights Ana to no end. She is so excited that she can give you things that provide you with endless entertainment. I find it convenient that we can now keep you distracted in your car seat for a longer period of time. I can also set you down on the play mat you got for Christmas and you will reach for the toys, batting them around and chatter away while I finish chores around the house. I use to have to wait for you to fall asleep to get anything done, but now that you are better at keeping yourself entertained, our house is going to be a much cleaner place to hang out!

A couple weeks ago we had our first outdoor Stroller Strides class of the year. It just happened to be unseasonably cold that day, but since the sun was shining I decided to bundle you girls up and take you for a fun adventure at the park. You did fabulously and managed to sleep through the majority of the class, enjoying your plush, cozy, little bundle of warmth.

You are getting so much stronger and you love to practice sitting up in the Bumbo. You are already trying to sit up on your own and when I lay you on my lap or on the Boppy half the time you try to pull yourself up, so much so that you are almost constantly doing a V-sit! You also love for me to hold your hands and let you stand up on my lap. You like to lean, dip, and sway to get the feel for what your body is capable of doing. It’s only a matter of time until you are able to master those physical abilities and use them to move yourself around!

When it comes to sleep, you have always been pretty great. Sure, you get up in the night, but we get some long stretches in there. For the most part you are asleep by 8:30 or 9pm and sleep for about seven hours or so. Then you wake up for a very brief time and go back to sleep for another three or four hours, waking up for the day around 7:30 or 8am. But we have had numerous days where you slept from 9pm-6:45am or 8:45pm-7:15am and it was AMAZING. (Sure, my boobs weren’t particularly happy, but the rest of me figured it was a fair trade.)

On mornings where Ana is up before you, she waits til she hears you talking in your bed and then I hear her feet pitter patter across the floor and then up to your room. She just loves to be the first person to talk to you each morning. She keeps a stool in your room which she drags over to your crib, climbs up, and peers in at you. She unwraps your swaddle blanket and lets you stretch and smile as you gently wake up. Then she generally sings you a song, tickles your tummy, or just enjoys you until your Daddy or I come in to pick you up out of the crib. It’s so amazing to watch you and Ana together. I can already tell you are going to have an amazing relationship.

We decided we needed to have a little family getaway so we spent this last weekend in Bend. This was your very first trip away from home. In our family we have this little tradition when we go on vacation: the first thing we do when we get to our room (before anyone has a chance to mess it up) is take a picture on the bed. So on Friday night, you got to be a part of your first hotel bed shot.

You adjusted well to sleeping in a strange bed. Most hotels provide a crib (or at the very least, a pack ‘n play) and you adapted quite nicely. You woke up a couple more times than normal, but I think it was because the heater in the room kept kicking on in the night and waking you up. But otherwise everything went smoothly.

Another exciting thing about staying in a hotel is playing in the pool. On our Bend vacation you went swimming for your very first time! It’s pretty special because this was the very same pool where Ana swam for the first time. It’s one of our favorite places to visit, so it’s only appropriate that we have so many wonderful memories and first milestones take place there.

Like most other moms, I spend a lot of time just staring at you. Marveling at the things you do, cherishing the person you are, and pondering who you will become. One day last week while I was looking into your beautiful blue eyes you looked back at me, reached up and rested your tiny hand on my cheek. At that moment you and I made a connection that melted my heart. It was like you were telling me “I know, Mama.” And I don’t want you to ever forget it.

All my love,
Mama

Dear Hadley,
Today you turn three months old. That’s a quarter of a year. How is that even possible? A year always seems like such a long stretch of time, but we’ve blown through a fourth of it already! It’s been so much fun spending time with you. You are full of smiles and love to coo and squeal. We have some very entertaining “conversations” where I alternate talking to you and listening to you babble on in your own little baby language. I always love to hear what you have to say.

You are such a happy girl and are more than willing to just go with the flow. Our schedule is quiet full, and let’s be honest, a little hectic, but you are always mellow and happy to check out the myriad of entertaining places we go, whether it’s play dates with our friends, out to dinner, or just driving around running errands. I love looking back in the “baby mirror” in my car to see you gazing out the window, just enjoying the world around you.

Earlier in the month you developed a new “skill” of bringing your fist directly to your eye and then dragging it down your face to get it to your mouth. But now, in a matter of days after practicing that skill, you are now able to bring your hands straight to your mouth. Just like that. BAM. Hands to mouth? Mastered. It’s amazing how quickly you are able to figure things out. Now you are working on using your hands to bring other things to your mouth, such as your clothes, Ana’s hair, and just about anything else within your reach. Needless to say, I have to really be on top of trimming your nails because those little things are sharp and grow like you wouldn’t believe! So we have a standing manicure date every Monday to trim your nails. Anything I can do to make hitting those developmental milestones as painless as possible!

While I stay home with you during the day, there are often times when I need to leave you with your Dad at night so we have had to experiment with giving you a bottled of my (pumped) milk. The first time you were NOT a fan (and threw it up all over your poor Daddy). We understand there is often a learning curve to things like this, so we tried a few more times and the past couple times you have started to get the hang of it. But you still clearly prefer your milk directly from Mama… and that is just fine with me!

(Once you were better at taking a bottle we let Ana help feed you. She was SO excited to get to be involved in the feeding process.)

Bath time is easily your favorite time of day. We recently let you take a bath in the big bathtub with Ana. Sure, Daddy had to hold on to you the whole time (rather than letting you rest in your little baby hammock in the little tub) but you loved splashing in the water along with your big sister. In fact it was hard to tell who was enjoying sharing their bath more, you or Ana!

Well, my little sweet pea, it’s been another amazing month. I love watching you grow and can’t help but imagine the person you are going to become. You have your whole life ahead of you and I want to help you to have every opportunity you could ever want. I can’t wait to hold your hand along the way, stand behind you when you need someone to have your back, and be the first to hug you whenever you need me. Until then, I’m going to practice by holding your tiny hands in mine, soothe you by rubbing your back, and hugging you as much as possible.

All my love,
Mama

Dear Hadley,
Yesterday you turned two months old. You have been an amazingly well behaved and easy going baby. For that I am eternally grateful, and don’t think for a minute that I don’t truly appreciate it! It has made the transition to having two children a whole lot easier to handle. Your personality is pretty laid back, and allowing you the occasional scream session when you are strapped into your car seat but you would much rather be held (and who could blame you for THAT?!), you are incredibly portable. I can take you just about anywhere and you are happy to go with the flow. As long as you have a clean diaper and access to boob, you are one happy camper. So much in fact that we took you up to Mt. Hood for the first time today. You father and sister are obsessed with the snow and really wanted you to come along on the adventure. It was a nice quick trip and you did amazingly well. Even when we covered you in layers of fleece and made you pose for pictures in the snow.

Your sweet, mellow personality is very comforting. So much in fact, that everyone wants to be around you. Where ever you are, so are we. Your parents, your sister, even our pets. The dogs and cats have even taken to curling up in your room while you nap. The cats sleep on the rug or behind the chair and the dogs surround your crib. Two months old and you already have groupies.

The only thing about you that isn’t particularly easy or fun is when you throw up. The quantity that you are able to expel from your body is quite impressive. I wouldn’t believe it was possible if I didn’t see it with my own eyes. Quite frequently. The nice thing about it (if we must find a silver lining) is that it doesn’t seem to bother you in the slightest. You don’t fuss or cry. Or make any noise at all really. You just open your mouth and projectile vomit. Then look at us like, “Huh. So that’s why I was feeling a little weird.” Then calmly watch us while we frantically strip you (and often us) of the now soiled clothing and plop you straight in to the bath tub. And you loooove the bath. We joke that you just keep throwing up as an excuse to take another bath. If that is really the case, please know that I can give you a bath WITHOUT you puking first. I assure you.

The only one in our household not phased by the puking is Ana. (Probably because she has yet to be puked ON, but I digress…) I don’t think there is anything you could do for her to look at you with anything less than pure adoration. She loves you with every fiber of her being. Ana wants to be next to you, hugging you, kissing you, or tickling you at every waking moment. And you love it. You are constantly searching the room for your sister, offering up the smiles you save just for her. The bond between sisters is a special connection and I am so happy you have that with Ana.

It has been such an amazing month with you. You are smiling all the time now. You even smile with such enthusiasm and the cutest little gurgles that it almost, almost, could be considered giggling. I know you are going to be a talker because we are already having some intense “conversations” of coos and squeaks. I am trying not to look forward to all the things you WILL do, but enjoy the things you ARE doing. I know you will only be this small, this young, this innocent for a short time and I want to savor every minute of it. You have already changed so much in such a short time. Every day I wrap you in my arms, kiss the top of your head, breathe in your heavenly smell and tell you that I love you. So. Much. And I promise I will do that every day… for as long as you let me.

All my love,
Mama